Archive for February, 2010

Comfort Zone Struggles

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I awake this morning, once again, to snow falling from the sky.  It has been an unusual wet, cold winter for us, or maybe not.  Maybe it has been more of a normal season and the previous dryer, warmer ones were the seasons in conflict.  Regardless, I know the world I live in is a confliction to the One who suffered and died for it.

At the Ash Wednesday service I made a promise to God to step out of my comfort zone.  In doing so I hope to defeat some of my fears and in the process to find gifts I have yet to discover.  I believe God makes opportunities for us to use those gifts He has given, but for abundant reasons we take a pass.  My promise was made Wednesday, on Thursday I got my first opportunity.  The church was in need of someone to do the children’s time Sunday morning.  I didn’t give myself time to think about it, I merely reacted with a yes expecting the dread to come after I was already committed.  But this time, the dread never came, as would be the customary.  I felt a calming peace, a joy of having this opportunity.  I knew God had responded to me with a blessing that was much greater than my fear.

Henri Nouwen once described Lent as the season during which winter and spring struggle with each other for dominance.  In my experience, spring eventually wins the struggle and the beauty created by it is magnificent! The new cycle of life begins once again bringing a feeling of warmth and hope comes alive!

I believe this ‘stepping out of my comfort zone’ will defeat much in me that has kept me from becoming the sanctified child my Lord expects.

Lord thank you for opportunities that bring me ever closer to you.

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A Lenten Prayer

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As I begin my journey through the Lenten season, I awake this morning knowing immediately what it is I must do. Prayer, oh yes but I wanted something to set my mind in focus. When normally I would reach for my Bible, today, I was looking for a different guide. I stooped to look under the bed where I knew I would find one of Rick’s many devotional books. One in particular caught my eye and it just happens to be exactly what I was looking for (unbeknown to me at that moment). It is titled, ‘Eternal Seasons; A Spiritual Journey through the Church’s Year’ by Henri J.M. Nouwen. I offer this prayer as it is tugging at me hard.

Dear Lord Jesus,
Today the Lenten season begins. It is a time to be with you in a special way, a time to pray, to fast, and thus to follow you on your way to Jerusalem, to Golgotha, and to the final victory over death.

I am still so divided. I truly want to follow you, but I also want to follow my own desires and lend an ear to the voices that speak about prestige, success, human respect, pleasure, power, and influence. Help me to become deaf to these voices and more attentive to your voice, which calls me to choose the narrow road to life.

I know that Lent is going to be a very hard time for me. The choice for your way has to be made every moment of my life. I have to choose thoughts that are your thoughts, words that are your words, and actions that are your actions. There are no times or places without choices. And I know how deeply I resist choosing you.

Please Lord, be with me at every moment and in every place. Give me the strength and the courage to live this season faithfully, so that, when Easter comes, I will be able to taste with joy the new life which you have prepared for me.

I offer this in your name, Amen.

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Love is…

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I had a fantastic time this past weekend at the annual Clergy Spouses Retreat at Lake Texoma.  The Prothro Center is fabulous!  Our speaker on Saturday was the Reverend Cammy Gaston.  We all thoroughly enjoyed her and the message she brought to us.  I wanted to share with you part of an exercise she had us do.  Her message came from 1Corinthians 13:4-7, “Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude.  It does not demand its own way.  It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged.  It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.  Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.”

Reverend Gaston gave us each a piece of paper with this verse printed, but left blank spots where we had to insert our own names into each blank, then we had to read them aloud to a partner.  So it goes like this…

_________ is patient, ______is kind.  ______is not jealous ______is not boastful ______is not proud ______is not rude.  ______does not demand her/his own way.  ______ is not irritable. ______keeps no record of being wronged. ______does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.  ______never gives up, ______never loses faith, ______is always hopeful and ______endures through every circumstance.

My first thought when asked to do this exercise was that I couldn’t pen my name in the blanks because it didn’t feel honest to do so and secondly, when asked to read it to my partner, well, it hurt deep inside. We each had to do some soul searching.  I encourage you to do this exercise and you might even consider keeping it handy to look at often as I have been doing since my return home.

As we strive to grow to become Christ like in our actions, thoughts, in our lives in general, I do believe our greatest stumbling block would be that of loving as Christ did love.  Love is the single greatest expression of Christ, the mark of a true follower of Jesus; love “binds us all together in perfect harmony” (Col 3:14) Love is the principal ethical manifestation of Christian faith, the primary fruit of the Spirit (Gal. 5:22) and one of the most important motivations for ministry.  The most important thing for believers to value and seek is to become a faithfully loving person.

It is not in my nature to be hateful; I don’t carry grudges, or wish any wrong upon a person.  I am a very forgiving person, knowing that I need forgiveness also.  I generally find that relationships are easy for me, I like people, they like me.  That makes love easy, so to speak.  But don’t you know it, that there will be that one person that comes around every so often and is determined to make love hard.  It is then that I find myself clinging mightily to Christ.  Not such a bad thing, huh?  Maybe we need those nemeses in our lives to make us stronger, to force us to cling more mightily to the cloaks of the Lord.

It’s all about choices, isn’t it?  We can choose to be patient, choose to be kind, choose not to be jealous, choose not to be boastful, choose not to be proud, choose not to be rude, choose not to demand our own way, choose not to be irritable, choose not to keep record of being wronged, choose not to rejoice about injustice, choose to never give up, never lose faith, always remain hopeful and choose to endure through every circumstance.

I pray for “attitudes of choice”.  May we cling mightily to His cloak, gathering comfort from His love, from our fellowship together in His Spirit.  May our hearts be tender and compassionate, working together with one mind and purpose.  May we not be selfish, be humble and look for the interests of another.  May we have the same attitude as Christ Jesus had.

“Though he was God, he did not think of equality with God as something to cling to.  Instead, he gave up his divine privileges; he took the humble position of a slave and was born as a human being.  When he appeared in human form, he humbled himself in obedience to God and died a criminal’s death on a cross.  Therefore, God elevated him to the place of highest honor and gave him the name above all other names, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father. “ (Phil.2:6-11)

Amen.

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