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It can be a Rocky trip to get to the cross.   While recently staying in a Colorado cabin, I and a large friendly dog belonging to the camp managers decided to take a hike up the mountain trail where a cross was planted at the edge of one of the cliffs.  The dogs’ name is Rocky and he was both good at finding the trail and wondering off to check out the sights and smells.  I trusted the local mountain dog and to some degree my own ability to maintain a sense of direction.  The result is that we ventured further and further from our destination and deeper into the mountains.

The scenery was beautiful and inspirational.  The hike and climb also made for a good work out.   I say climb because following Rocky lead to some rather difficult routes through strenuous terrain.  The journey was beautiful, inspirational, and healthy; could a person ask for a better way to spend their limited time on earth?

But let’s not forget about my original destination, the cross.

As we wandered back and forth, first east then west with some north and south thrown in, we were what I would call searching but not lost.  This is because I knew basically where I was, I just could not get to where I wanted to be, which now was back home.

One thing about a mountain is that not only is it beautiful, and good to hike or climb, but it should be
respected with great care; because you can’t whip creation; mountain, desert, jungle, or ocean. Often you survive the journey, enjoy it and learn from the experience.

As the thirty minute hike turned into one hour, then two going on three, we traveled over ridges, down ravines through Aspen stands, meadows, and almost continuous rows of Ponderosa Pines.  I began to think this is a lot like life.

As I followed Rocky along a six inch wide trail with a rough ten to twenty foot express to the bottom, depending on which way you tumbled; I noticed the route seemed more suitable for the dog than a person. On the other hand he did tuck his tail, not a good sign; sometimes those we follow don’t really know what’s best for us or them!

At this point I knew it was time to stop just talking to the Lord and start giving up control to God to get me and Rocky back, preferable in one piece.

Often I began an adventure, or just the day, knowing what I want and what I think is best, yet the good and exciting things often side track me to the point that I only think I’m in control and know just exactly where I am.  My focus often ceases to be the Christ as I attempt to seize the day, Carpe Diem!  Of course “seizing the day” and focusing on Christ are not opposites.  In reality it is experiencing each day and moment with God that truly gives us the day and plenty of adventure to boot.

It’s beautiful, healthy, and fun, yet the majesty of the mountain, the trees and ridges, kept me from finding what I had set out for, the cross.  Just because something meets our understanding of good and pleasurable does not mean it is best for us, others, or in the proper prospective in regards to what we consider most important. I have found what we say is not nearly as important as what we do.

I eventually turned it over to God, deciding to head down the mountain based on some far away landmarks forsaking the beauty around me and concentrating on getting home.  It was only then that I found both Cross and home.  Do we listen to God or do we insist we know the way or follow someone else?

Rick

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Our Trip So Far

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We are having a nice relaxing time.  Have been doing a lot of reading, exploring, a little writing and a little shopping.

When we left from Archer City  Thursday morning, the plan was to get up at 4 and leave by 5.  At 2a.m. Rick wakes me up to ask if I was awake.  He couldn’t sleep and wanted to get going.  So we did!  Well, it was closer to 4 by the time we left.

We made it all the way to Red River.  Stayed in a nice cabin with the river flowing in front.  The only bad thing about that cabin was that it was a loft meaning the bed was upstairs.  Well the stairs were very narrow and steep and  neither one of us has knees worth a  hoot.

In the off season, seems a lot of shops close up.  So there wasn’t a lot of activity, but then, Rick and I like that.  We come to the mountains to do nothing.

We drove into Taos on Friday, which was a really neat place.  We had a nice mexican food lunch and shopped a bit.  Rick found a great hat, one he had been looking for awhile.  I found some pretty earrings for me and Kristin and cheap little bracelets for all our grandgirls.  I should say that anytime Rick and I have been anywhere, we buy a pot. So we have one from all our many travels.  LOL  Well this time, I decided maybe I should not buy a pot because right now all of them are put away in a closet to make room for our family.  I was a little sad, but Rick’s hat was rather pricey, as well as my earrings.

Saturday we drove up to Southfork, Colorado.  We are staying at Goodnights Lonesome Dove Inn.  Our cabin is the pea-eye. (I linked it in case you have nothing to do but check out our digs)  No they didn’t give us a discount for being from Archer City.   LOL  A very nice modern cabin with a mountain right behind us that Rick can climb.  There just happen to be 2 crosses at the very top of that mountain that I can see from my kitchen window.  One was put up there in honor of the fallen firemen of 9/11.  The other is in memory of a family member that owns the land, I think.

Speaking of climbing the mountain.  On Sunday afternoon, Rick did just that.  He took along with him the camps dog, Rocky…named after the fighter, not the Rockie Mountains.  He is part hound and I swear is the best dog in the world!  We love this dog!  Rocky now will sit outside our cabin and howl for Rick to come pet him.  Have you ever heard a hound dog howl?  LOL

Back to Sunday afternoon.  Rick had only intended to climb up to the crosses and not be gone long. So he and Rocky take off without any supplies.  He was, afterall, only going to be gone a little bit.  I take my book and my computer to a picnic table to sit in the warm sun and write and read.  Heaven!  I should mention that in our cabin, we don’t get cell phone reception.  We have to go outside.

Anyway, after about an hour, I thought I better call Rick to check on him and then head back to the cabin to nap.  I did, he was fine.  Rocky was showing him some sights.  I go lay down and fall asleep.  An hour and a half later I wake up and realize Rick is not back.  I’m only mildly panicked because I know Rick when he gets in the mountains.  He is like a woman gone shopping and tells her husband she’ll be back in an hour and then sees her 4 hours later.

I’m thinking in the back of my mind that he could’ve been calling and I would’nt of known it so I go outside to call him.  He does answer on the second or third try.  No he isn’t lost.  He does have Rocky after all and Rocky knows his way home.  The only problem is that neither one of them knows which one is leading.  He doesn’t exactly know where he is, nor does he know how to get back, but he isn’t lost.  I now begin to panic just a little more thinking that I’m going to have to find someone to go save him.  Rick says don’t worry, he’ll find his way back eventually.  He has no water, no compass and he tells me not to worry.

I go for a little walk, piddle around in the cabin awhile, trying to calm my nerves.  Finally, after 3-31/2 hours here comes Rocky with his tongue hanging out the side of his mouth and Rick not far behind him.  There is never a dull moment!

Yesterday we went into Creede.  I grew up summers in Creede.  It is like a second home and this is the first time in 14 years since I’ve been back.  It hasn’t changed.  It’s a little ole mining town with great little shops down the main street.  And I remember always going into the place that was half bar and half ice cream store.  My dad would take us in there and get him a beer and we would get an ice cream cone.  Well shoot if that place wasn’t closed for the season!   I was disappointed.  But you know what I did do?  I found a pot that I just couldn’t resist.  It’ll go in the closet with the others, but one day, I’ll display it!  On the way back to our cabin, we stopped at a park/camping area and walked around the edge of the river.  So gorgeous!

I really should back up a minute and tell you of how we got to Creede.  Also you should know that we received an early Christmas present from Rick’s parents just for the purpose of our vacation.  A GPS system that rick and I have named Sheila.  Everyone should have a GPS system!  Sheila has proven herself to be very reliable.

Well when we start out yesterday morning to go to Creede, Rick says, “why don’t you plug in Sheila”.  I say, “Oh we don’t need Sheila to get to Creede. Turn right.”  See, I’m in charge of navigation, he is in charge of driving.  He turns right.  We drive along a ways and begin to climb really high and I’m thinking, hmm…this reminds me of Wolf creek Pass.  The further we go, the more I am reminded of Wolf Creek Pass, with the big clue being that we pass Wolf Creek ski area.  We are nearly in Pagosa Springs before we realize we are headed in the wrong direction.

Really it wasn’t a big deal.  We wanted to go over Wolf Creek Pass anyway, just not at that time.  To prove we were headed in the wrong direction, we plug in sheila who immediately tells us to make a u-turn.  So, we get to go back over Wolf Creek Pass.  It is a beautiful drive, very high up.  You don’t use your brakes too much, but drive in second gear.  Signs are all over warning trucks of this and that and there are even ‘runaway truck’ areas.

Rick does not forget to remind me who the navigator is.  I tell him that yes, I messed up.  However, as in all things, there is the one person that everything ultimately  falls down upon which in this case would be the driver.

Today, Rick has ventured back up the mountain and is there as I type.  This time he packed his backpack with supplies and bought a compass.  He promises me he will not get lost nor will he meet up with a bear.  I’m not sure I believe him.

I should go take a walk outside in this gorgeous weather.  Oh, the nights have been in the upper 20′s with the days in the upper 60′s.  Perfect!

To be continued…
Tracie

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Faith?

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What does it really mean to have faith?  We say we have it, yet do we live it in our daily lives?  There are some that do, yes.  But most often, I would have to say people lack faith.

Paul tells us in Hebrews 11:1 what faith is…”Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.”

I’ve thought a lot about this particular verse in seeking to understand why it is that I continue to suffer from chronic pain.  It has caused me to think a lot about my hope and where it lies.  I do carry a lot of hope that one day I will be free from the daily suffering, but I’ve come to understand that it is not in the end result that we carry hope, but it is in the journey toward the end result that it abides.  And that journey of hope has brought me much gain.  The fulfillment of peace and the exuberance of joy are two of my greatest treasures.  But faith has become the essence of my Christian life.

In Mark 11:22-24, Jesus said, “Have faith in God.  I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him.  Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”

Faith that moves mountains.  Faith in yourself that you can move a mountain will not gain entry into the sea.  But faith that God will move the mountain for you will move it beyond the depths of the sea.

It is too often that we base our faith on the end result rather than the blessings we received during the journey.  It is then that we may begin to lose hope and life becomes a chore.

Where does your faith lie?  Does it rely on the outcome of daily life or is it found in the hope of your daily blessings?  Must you have proof of faith, if so, then it is not faith at all.

In my faith journey, I have refocused my hope.  It is not on the hope of the physical being, but it is hope in the spiritual.  For my physical self is dying just as is yours.  But what lies within my spiritual being is the promise of Jesus.  He has moved mountains for me.  My hope is that God allows me to use His strengths, gained through faith, to bring blessings upon another.  My hope is that my blessings flow into you and that you share them with another.  And God is faithful.  He has used me to reach out to others in ways I never thought possible; just as He uses others to bless me.  It has been and continues to be an awesome journey.  It is a journey of growing Christians.  Christians who find that hope lies in salvation and salvation is discovered in what we sow each and every day.

I have learned to stop staring at the mountain before me and to look for the space between the mountain and the sea.  It is there that I’ve discovered faith and where my hope lies so preciously.

Thank You Jesus for the faith, hope and love you’ve given me.
God Bless,

Tracie

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Taking Time Out

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I am sitting out on a picnic bench surrounded by the Colorado Rockies.   The silence is surreal.  In the quietness, I can hear creation in all it’s glory.  The Rio Grande flows to my left, to the right a strange chirping.  As I look up to the mountain, I see a cross, standing powerfully alone.   This is a beautiful place.

We are on vacation.  We have been to Red River, New Mexico for a couple of days, and now are in Southfork, Colorado, at Goodnight’s Lonesome Dove RV and Cabin Park.  Our cabin is the “Pea Eye”.  At this moment Rick is hiking up the mountain with the camps dog, Rockie.  A great dog!

It feels wonderful to get away from the business of life.  The slow pace a vacation can allow is much needed and we are really good at enjoying it.  It’s October, so we have warm days and cold nights.  My kind of weather!  Neither one of us cares too much about activity.  We are simple that way.  We enjoy the beauty of creation in all its forms.  We did go into Taos, New Mexico a couple of days ago.  We enjoyed it, but after a dozen or so stores, they begin to all look the same.  Rick did find a hat.  I found some earrings and little bracelets for our girls.

Back at home, once again our lives have taken a big turn as Kristin and Kylie and Karlie moved in with us a few weeks ago.  The arrangement has been working out fine.  We are enjoying each one of them immensely.  Yes, we love the privacy afforded us when it was just the two of us.  But it seems God just keeps putting this little family on our doorstep.  We figure there is a reason, and we know they are being raised in a home full of love and affection.  So we will continue as we have been called to do; to minister to the hurting in whatever ways God chooses.

“Do you love me?, asks Jesus of Peter.  “Then feed my sheep.”  God gives many opportunities to us so that we may feed his sheep.  If we are too involved in the business of life, we may well miss those times.  I’m guilty of allowing myself to get too involved in work.  I am trying to be more aware of this and instead to take time out, to look around and to listen.  Vacation has reminded me of that.  Something else I am reminded of…I don’t have to come to the mountains to experience God’s great creation.  Some of His greatest creations can be found right in my home and I can’t wait to give them big hugs and kisses.

God Bless,
Tracie

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What is the Sunday Spouse?

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Actually, the term “Sunday Spouse” is wrong in every aspect. We who are the spouses of ministers understand that all to well. But it is a catchy term if anything, one that will catch the eye and hope be one of immediate recognition to those who I am seeking to read and share. The Sunday Spouse is for all those spouses, men and women, who need a place of refuge, a place where we can come to share where only those who are that spouse day in and day out, can truly understand the difficulties, the hilarities, the joys, the sadness and the outright ridiculous times. I LOVE being the spouse of a minister. There is no other place in this life I would rather be. The honor alone is so humbling. The people you meet, the experiences, just all of it is so incredibly awesome. But, as with anything good, there is the bad. The bad in this case is the loneliness. It can be so overwhelming.

My hopes for this page are that we can grow to know one another and be a support to each other in whatever ways we need. So please share your stories, your hurts, your funniest of times, your hardest of times and your most joyous times. And if I may suggest a great book to read although I wouldn’t be a bit surprised if many of you haven’t already read it…Home to Harmony; by Philip Gulley. Philip Gulley is a quaker minister who shares stories of some of his experiences in caring for a church. The characters are as real as you’ve experienced in your own churches. Here is an excerpt…

It being Easter, I preached on the Resurrection. I told how in the resurrection of Jesus, God rejected our rejection. In the Crucifixion we said no to God, but in the Resurrection God said yes to us. I told them that God covets every lost soul.

“It’s not God’s will that any should perish,” I declared. Then I told of the good shepherd who searched until every sheep was found, of the forgiving father who ran to embrace his straying son.

It was grace-full preaching. I even pounded the pulpit. Twice. Many pulpits have been pounded in the name of hellfire; I thought it was time to pound one in the name of grace.

Fern Hampton sat in the sixth row, her face pruned up. This was not the gospel she had learned as a child. She was not a big believer in grace. As theories go, grace was good, but in reality it lacked satisfaction. Fern was a disciple of retribution. In her opinion, Jesus was a bit too quick to forgive. She wanted God to punish sinners and had strong opinions about with whom He should start.

After worship, I stood at the meetinghouse door greeting people and shaking hands. Men with shirts buttoned to the top, neck fat spilling over their collars. Ladies in flowered dresses, bathed in perfume and heavy with Easter corsages. Children running amongst their tree-truck legs, just as I had when I was their age. Fern Hampton was the last person through. She eyed me up and down for a moment, then asked, “Wherever did you learn such foolishness?”

This is how foreign grace was to her, that when she heard it she mistook it for heresy. There are some people, I am sorry to say, who wouldn’t recognize grace if it stood at their door wearing a name tag.

Really, it is a great book! You’ll laugh, and i promise you will recognize the characters as being someone you know in your church.

I hope to hear from somebody soon!

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Kens and Vegas

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Whew what a week! A week ago last Sunday we celebrated Kenslee’s 2nd birthday. It was a blast! I’ve never had that kind of fun at a child’s birthday before. We went to ‘Jump for Joy’, which is a place with several large air slides, obstacle courses, etc. Adults were allowed to play and boy did we play. It felt good to just play, relax and have fun.

The next day I left for Las Vegas with my girlfriend and boss, Sandra. It was a business/vacation trip. We went to the PubCon convention, which was very informative for the most part. Then we played around in Vegas.

I wasn’t all that impressed with Vegas. Yes the flashing bright lights all around are impressive but it’s all so sad really.  So much money, so much hurting and loss.  I guess i should just enjoy it for what it is, and i did. But i can’t say i would ever go back.

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November 27,2007

I love the holidays! Our Thanksgiving was great. We traveled just a little ways to Rick’s parents, spent 2 nights and had some good old fashion family time. We even watched ‘A Christmas Carol’ on Thursday evening. Rick absolutely loves anything to do with ‘A Christmas Carol’. The different movie versions, books, the characters, the story itself and the wisdom behind it all. We have a couple of versions, I need to find another to put in his stocking this year.

Friday was our 16th wedding anniversary. We had a nice dinner at home, and then on Saturday we went to the Spa House to enjoy a nice relaxing time. It was awesome! I had never had a massage before, not like that one! We spend some time in the hot tub and then had an entire hour massage. I think I would like to do that once a month, if i could afford it. It has convinced me, however, to begin a yoga class. With the fibromyalgia that has attacked my body, i believe yoga would be a good thing to help my body to work better. I’ll see because I start a class on friday!

Oh and this coming Monday I leave for Las Vegas! I’ve never been to Las Vegas, never really cared much about going. Only because there are so many other places I’d rather go, but this is a work related trip. I’ll be going with Sandra, my boss, to the PubCon Conference. I expect we will have a great time! I expect to learn a lot and meet some nice folk. I also expect to win a few bucks!

Right now I am busy with work and holiday preparation. I give an open house every year for the church we serve. I really enjoy doing this, to celebrate some of the holiday spirit with those whom I worship with and live with in this community. It is also a way for Rick and I to say thank you, to show love. It is a huge thing really, at least the preparation for it is very time consuming for we decorate like crazy. We have a collection of Dept.56 North Pole Series houses. We go all out on our display with a train that goes through the village and through a mountain. We design it a bit differently each year. It’s fun though. Right now my house is a huge mess with everything spread out here and there. But by the time the day arrives, it will look magnificent!

Traditions…I love to hear about other peoples holiday traditions. Traditions are so important to act upon, to continue, to make. Have you ever thought about where a particular family tradition began? One year I started a large stocking tradition. I think christmas stockings are the best to get! Well, if the giver understands what goes in a stocking. I have large stockins for the kids and grandkids. They love them! One year we started our tradition of Santa Claus. We take turns each year wearing the Santa cap. The one with the Santa cap is the one to pass out the presents…and we open one at a time. Rick and I have a tradtion of exchanging our stockings on christmas eve, after we have come home from Candlelight Services, which is another tradition, and with a glass of champaigne, we exchange our stocking gifts. Most times, they aren’t much. Actually we’ve never had much money to spend on each other after we are through with the kids. This year though, we all decided to draw names, except for the grandgirls. So maybe there will be a little extra money to go around. That’s just a few of our traditions. I’ll have to think about what else we do. Anybody care to share their traditions?

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Second Chances

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original post Sept. 3, 2007

Well, oops I did it again! I have a bad habit of letting time get by me before I write to my blog. Much has happened since my last writing too. I think mainly, I just didn’t feel like sharing.

Back in February, 2 of our grandgirls came to live with us. They went home this past weekend! We have beenMore… on a roller coaster of emotional highs and lows. Everyday they were here, I would go to sleep thinking I couldn’t do another day; and each morning I would awaken to “just enough” strength and stamina to hold out. And I always managed to have a smile and encouraging ‘nana hug’ for they too were going through trauma. In fact, that is how we managed, not thinking about our own pain but thinking of theirs and how we could make it better for them. I believe we learned more about selfless love during this time than any other. And now that they have returned to their home, life is as it should be, with each of us in our places.

Having to let go was so very hard, they had become our life and we put all we had into it. I think more so than when we were raising our own children. Age, maturity, experience…there is much to be said about them; we felt the difference in our decision making. Second chances; I think we are given many of them and sometimes even 3rd and 4th chances. But i don’t think we always recognize them as such. And sometimes I think we have to make our own second chances, but whatever the case may be, we must do better when given another chance. I’ll never forget a time when I was a struggling young mother. I had asked my dad for financial help and was concerned of how I would ever repay him. He told me that I may not get to repay him, but one day I would get a chance to give back. He was so right! And I have so often had the opportunity to remember those words and say a little thank you to my dad. I reckon he smiles.

I hate the circumstances in which it occurred, but I love that I was given a second chance. I feel more complete now, having accomplished the need to give back, to contribute to a persons life, to contribute to society. It feels really good and I can’t help but believe our grandgirls will be better off for it.

And now what? Finally, after having been married for 16 years, we are childless! Empty nesters and proud of it! It’s barely been only a week, but we are settling nicely into the stillness around us. We will get back to the business of busyness and involve ourselves more completely into ministry, running a church. It’s different now though, as it should be when we travel through life’s roads. There are so many valleys to go through, but valleys aren’t all bad; I do happen to prefer the mountaintops though! You can’t reach the mountaintop until you’ve traveled through the valleys. And dare I say it but I’m sure there will be more valleys to travel through. I just pray we can stay on top of the mountain for a bit longer.

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And one more makes number 4

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On April 12th our 4th grandgirl entered into our lives! Rhilyn Grace came into our world, healthy and beautiful! She is our first sons first child. God is so awesome!

Today is a rainy day. That means I have to find something to keep the girls entertained all day long, in the house. Not as easy as one would think. You can only watch so many movies and have so many snacks and read so many books. They need to learn how to entertain themselves more. Kids today don’t seem to be able to do that very well. I suppose it is all the stuff we have allowed them to have. I remember having to use my imagination and being able to wander around the neighborhood freely. We would play with the water hose, hide and seek, kick the can, we would run, race and just have fun doing whatever we could come up with. I guess us old folk will always think the old days were better.

I have a grandgirl tugging on my arm, it must be snacktime.

God Bless,
Tracie

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Just when you think…

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Posted on May 18th, 2007

I’m back! I know I haven’t bothered to write a single word for quite some time. I’ve been busy and frankly I haven’t been able to “pen” my emotions lately. Such big changes in our life as 2 of our grand girls moved in with us back in February. I don’t want to reveal the reasons for all the world to see, but as you can imagine, my writings will be based on a different life.Every aspect of our life has changed. There is nothing that has not been affected. I still haven’t gotten use to the fact that I can no longer just get up and go. My mind set has been slow to change in that area.

There are many things i could complain about but i choose not to. I choose to look, to search for the positives in this situation and concentrate on them. Making that choice makes everyday brighter; in fact you see the situation in a whole different light. I don’t want to live in the darkness of negativism. (not sure that is even a word)

    These girls are precious to us and I thank God everyday for the opportunity to love them in the various ways we are afforded. And we pray daily for God to take control of this situation because we don’t know how, really. We ask Him to direct our thoughts, our actions our responses. He is leading us through these times by the hand. I can’t imagine having it any other way.

    Each day is a day all its own and hopefully I will have the energy and time to share some of those days with you. Believe me, they don’t get boring!

    Until next time…

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